It’s the most wonderful time of the year… except when it’s not.
The holidays usually mean the coming together of family members. Ordinarily this is a welcome time of festive gatherings, exchanging of presents, and special memories made near a roaring fireplace. For some, however, this Norman Rockwell image is drastically different from reality, particularly when the recent loss of a loved one is involved. Let’s note that “loss” is not limited to death; it can also include divorce, hospitalization, incarceration, active duty without a holiday leave, or a family member who moved away.
Recently, I (Carlea) attended the funeral for my great aunt. Though Marge was 93 and in failing health, her death hit our family rather hard, especially her daughters and sister (my grandmother, who is now the only one left of the original 11 siblings). The sermon during the church service (paraphrased herein) highlighted how this first holiday is going to be different: You’ll notice the quiet. You’ll notice the missing [specialty food]. You’ll notice the missing chair at the table.
While I was at the repast, a good friend of mine (still Carlea) texted to say that her parents are getting divorced after more than thirty years of marriage. This news was unexpected and rendered her numb. She just kept asking how it could be real and why, if it had to happen, it had to come so close to Hanukkah. This was supposed to be the first time she would be hosting her family and now everything was changing.
How do you cope with the holiday season in the “next normal” or “new normal”? How do you hold on to a sense of control when things are clearly out of your control?
The most important thing to do, as we have discussed in other blog posts, is to recognize what is in your circle of power. My grandmother can’t bring her sister back. My friend can’t convince her parents to stay together. So we try to do what we can: accept what it is and move forward from that point. Yes, that’s easier typed than done.
Some feel consoled leaving a place at the table for the absent person, but many others would find that much more discomforting because it is a visual reminder of the vacancy. You may, therefore, choose to remember the person in a smaller way. I (Carlea again) have made ornaments with pictures of departed relatives, reminding me of times we spent together. Every year for Thanksgiving, my mother makes her aunt’s stuffing (though Aunt Petronella called it “dressing”). My mother-in-law has a picture of her mother as the angel for her crèche. A friend video-chats with her husband who is stationed overseas. For the past 14 years, my father brings homemade goodies to the staff at the nursing home where his parents finished their earthly stories. A colleague mentioned that she has a “moment of reflection” during which everyone present shares a memory, story, or image of those who cannot be with them — one even sings a favorite song! These simple gestures became meaningful traditions that do not overwhelm us with intense feelings of loss. Rather, they celebrate the lives and connections we had to those who left.
Other coping suggestions include planning a totally new activity that literally takes you away from the familiar reminders of the absent one. Go on a mini-vacation. Celebrate with a different group of people. Volunteer at a soup kitchen or shelter. Keep your mind and body distracted – not to the point where you are ignoring, denying, or detaching from the loss, but to keep you focused on something productive instead of painful.
No matter what options you are comfortable choosing, you must give yourself permission to feel. There will be moments when you want to do nothing but sit in silence. Other times you will want to do nothing but scream. You might even find yourself smiling or laughing and then feel guilty because how dare you be happy when you are missing someone?! Have “the big, snotty cry” if that is what you want to do. Let yourself feel. Take the time you need. As we said in another post, it’s okay to say “no” to invitations; just be sure you don’t let your mourning stop you from living.
There was a message of comfort in the sermon for my aunt (again paraphrased): Marge lives on in your hearts and memories. If you listen in the quiet, you can hear her. If you feel in the still, you can sense her. Remembering means no one ever leaves.
You might not feel better today. You might not feel better tomorrow. But at some point, you will feel that you have moved to the next normal and that will be the next best thing.
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Loosing a close friend or relative through divorce, hospitalization, incarceration, active duty without a holiday leave, or a family member who moved away or even death takes time. If embraced positively, it can also be the reason for a new sense of meaning that offers purpose and direction to our daily lives. But How do you hold on to a sense of control when things are clearly out of our control?
First, we must deal with acceptance instead of avoiding your thoughts and your feelings. Loosing a loved one during the holidays or having to deal with separation can bring sadness and sorrow. We can overcome phases like this positively by Talking about the loss of your loved one with friends and colleagues, because denying it is just an easy way to isolate yourself. By Accepting our feelings, we experience all kinds of emotions such as: sadness, anger, frustration, we can embrace those feelings and do chores to distract ourselves and give us a cense of purpose, but never to avoid dealing with those emotions.
When a loss occurs, coping with the holiday season in “the next normal” can be challenging, and it is important to know that we can only control what’s within our reach. “Leaving a place at the table for the absent person… maybe discomforting since it is a visual reminder of the vacancy’. Instead we can take care of ourselves, eat well while remembering and commemorating our loved one for all the wonderful memories we shared together. Coping with loss can be very difficult, but we can also reach out and help others come while helping ourselves at the same time, since stories of loved ones from another perspective can actually help us feel better. It is a difficult time to deal with loss, but in my opinion if we embrace our feelings and embrace them instead of avoiding them then everything can turn out to be better.
I really wish that I would have read this post a long time ago for more insight on loss during special times like the holiday season. Thank you for all the information and ways to make it better. Accepting things and moving forward is definitely true because you cannot go back in time and change things no matter how much you want to. Nothing in this world is easy and I believe that it is all a processes, it takes time but we must put in the effort to keep moving forward. It is a difficult time to deal with loss, but in my opinion we must be well with ourselves in order to then help and be well with others. Everything can get better.